"It's been incredibly reflective, which is unbelievable, but it's very hard".
"At first I thought the royal wedding was stealing my shine away for a while, I'm like, 'Of course they have to get married right by when I was getting married, '" she joked.
Nikki Bella Believes John Cena Wants Kids, Has Other Doubts After Split
Nikki tells TMZ, John's public hand-wringing - including posting a photo of John Cusack holding the boombox over his head in the film, "Say Anything" - has convinced her his change of heart on wanting kids wasn't hollow.
"John is absolutely an awesome man, he's such a sweetheart, and I truly love him so much".
Nikki continued, "I think when you sacrifice for so long and it's like you can give so much and then you kind of get tired of giving, and then someone wants to give it back and you just start to feel exhausted". "I've never felt that unconditional love". I think sometimes we go through things because we're like, 'OK, this is what we need to do.
The clip also features a hilarious moment when John awkwardly tells Nikki's family that it's OK to wear shoes in the house despite what Brie describes as his "OCD".
It isn't hidden from the world that Nikki wanted to be a mother but would Nikki do it on her own? "He's my best friend", she said. "I want to give her everything and make sure she has the greatest life".
She even added that she wants to create a baby with someone.
"But I think a lot of us who go through the wedding planning process are forced to face these issues that we have hiding deep down inside".
'I can't tell you how many people have reached out to me since I made my decision [to call off the wedding]. I want to be the father of her children.